Ups and downs

It's been such an emotional roller coaster these past few days.

Two nights ago, we were packing and moving things in and out of the house. Ginger somehow ended up in the middle of the street and got hit by a car. A bystander stopped and took her body from the street and laid her on the grass. We had no idea what had happened at the time. 10-15 minutes passed and Taty started looking for Ginger and the bystander asked if she was looking for a dog. She looked over and saw Ginger's lifeless body on the side of the road. I was inside at the time when Taty came looking for me to tell me what happened. I didn't know what to do. The lady said Ginger was already dead when she took her out of the street. I couldn't believe it and I still can't believe she's really gone. She was just there.

Also Ella just left with Nok and Noy and family for FL. While they are going to move there for a few years, Ella will be staying with them for a month. It feels so empty already. My heart feels so unsettled. With them gone, Thou will have none of his family members here. Bree was the only one who stayed back for school. I really hope one of the girls will consider moving back to stay with us when the school year starts again. I don't know what we are going to do without them. They have been our lifeline for so long now.

New job also meant quitting my current job at Northwest Family Physicians. I just put in my two weeks notice in yesterday. It's going to be hard to go. I've built some really good relationships here and as if leaving wasn't hard enough, Rich also gave me a guilt trip about leaving making me feel even worse. I think everyone goes through it and I've been through it before, but it never gets easier.

I guess the good always goes with the bad. I have an awesome new job, with an awesome boss. Bought a new house and renovating it to my liking. Two once in a lifetime trips coming up. So many good, bittersweet moments.

Just gotta remember to be POSITIVE.